Forgive but not forget

I unexpectedly saw a "brod" last Saturday and was happy to have seen an old friend. In between "chika" he invited me to his upcoming birthday party. I wanted to say yes, but I said I'd try.. then suddenly remembered that last year my "X" went to his bash and I was just glad to have missed the party. My friend said whynot go to his bash this year, whether or not "X" will be there, "hindi mo pa rin ba siya napapatawad?" To which I replied, "alam mo naman yata kung ano nangyari? Ikaw ba hindi mo sya isusumpa habangbuhay?" My friend smiled at me and said, "mas maganda kung magagawa mong magpatawad"

I have never been the grudging type, although I admit medyo warfreak ako. Only when provoked and only when I am in the right. But usually if its just small things, I know how to let go and move on. In this case, I have moved on (its not as if I still love him or something) but I never got over the fact that a person I trusted with my life would betray me to the point of humiliating me to my own self. This is not the "third party" kind of offense, nor is it the "iniwan ka sa ere" drama. To me those are forgivable acts maybe because these things do happen in relationships and these things involve decisions made by both parties.

I have always told myself that I will never give "X" the benefit of going over his head simply because I forgave him. I can never be friends with him again, even if I do forgive him. Forgiveness should be sincere and not forced. And thinking about this again has made me revisit my feelings on this issue.

Maybe since time has flied, it has mellowed my anger and hurt. Forgive him yes, but forget? Never.

Vitamin C

Woke up this morning with my throat hurting.

uh-oh.. I thought I was ALMOST successful with avoiding any respiratory illness of any kind this season. Seems to me it'll try and try until it hits me.

My dorm mate once told me to take 1000 mg of ascorbic acid when I felt colds or cough coming. Just complement it with lots of water throughout the day and it'll do its best to put off getting sick. Tried it then and it worked. Been doing just that till this day, as long as the colds are not yet "full blast". Have I mentioned that my dorm mate was a Vet? hahaha! OK lang yun, hayup din naman talaga ako eh!

I better dose up on my vitamin C and hope it can still ward off the pathogens. Dont wanna be groggy with antihistamines and antibiotics this Christmas.. ayoko na maging adik sa Pasko!